This post I'd like to begin with a poem from Maya Angelou.
in equal amounts.
will not build the temple.
will destroy its walls.
~ Maya Angelou ~
At this current moment, I hang in the balance between patience and passion.
My passion says - Go, go, and go...for there's so many places I'd like to be right now.
My patience says - Wait, wait, wait...there's some things I've got to organize for you - Relax.
On Passion - I want to leave NY on recreation for the next month or so.
On Patience - I want to wait on confirmation of key elements to help organize my future.
By experience and maturity, I've learned to wait even though I want to go.
For I could surely book my flight and GO!
For the first time ever, I am on complete break from those major activities - School and Work - which have been a major component of my life for the past twenty years.
It's hard to Be Still.
I'm having an issue chilling-out.
We're trained in activity. I'm learning that I don't know how to relax. For who would've thought it'd be a task to do almost nothing but plan, complete stepping stone steps, and play the waiting game. :/
[Most people would love the day of not having to do much. But, then again the thought of not being able to be dependent upon themselves might frighten them. The Money, the money, the money. While payment of a few major bills does at times present a slight amount of anxiety, I can honestly say I'm not scared. I'm happy that I've learned to Save, trust God and his Word and providence, and just not worry about where the money will come from. Is life not more than that?]
The mere planning and envisioning of my future and small accomplishments that I experience daily excites me beyond words. I look for places to channel my adrenaline and I'm reverted to the directions of Resting, Relaxing, and Waiting. (Sigh) sometimes I'm a ball of excitement being to told to slow-down lol.
The patience doesn't build the temple, for you need passion to do that.
Too much passion "unknowingly" tears down the walls of the temple.